I was listening to a song that brought me back, back to the summer Ben & I started dating.
I had just graduated high school, I had no clue what I was going to do with my life & all I wanted to do was have fun. I mean you spend 12 years straight in school, there is a break needed at SOME point. My life was a stressball that whole last semester of school, dealing with school ending & friends leaving, I just felt lost. All my friends knew where they were going to college, knew what they wanted to do, basically had their life planned out. Then there was me, I had NO clue what to do. I kept going day to day, spending as much time with friends. I remember always talking to Ben, everything always felt so right when I talked to him. I wasn't stressed around him, I wasn't self conscious around him, I could actually be myself around him, it just felt...right. A couple months passed and we fell in love, yes people, reallllll love! I never imagined being so close to someone, especially a boy. If you know me, I was a flirt but when it came down to a relationship or seriousness, you could count me out. I was terrified of it. But with Ben it came so natural, I never worried. So while all my friends were off at college, letting their brains fill up with knowledge, I was home, letting my heart fill up with love. I do not remember an exact moment, I just remember coming home at night and I felt perfect. I was the happiest I had ever been, all because of a boy. He has changed my life for the better, I would be incredibly lost without him.